I walked into the ballet studio at the age of forty-three. It had been twenty-six years since I had danced. I’ll never forget that first class – a mixture of emotions ranging from fear to thrill coursed through me. But the moment I attempted my first tendu I knew I would never leave dance again.
I would have started back sooner, that’s what every dancer says, but life got in the way. I experienced a terrible health set-back that caused me to be bed-ridden for the majority of the nineties: Fibromyalgia and Chronic Fatigue Syndrome fell upon me with a crushing blow. I call those years my ‘lost decade’, a hibernation of sorts, where I waited and waited, in a fog, for my life to begin again.
And it did! My strength slowly started to come back in year eleven of my illness. I was very skeptical at first and very afraid to be hopeful. But I kept getting stronger and stronger. And that glimmer of hope grew and I knew that if I had the slightest chance to get my life back that the first thing I would do was DANCE.
I didn’t let anything stop me. Not the puzzled looks or the curious questions. I danced and danced and danced, as much as I could. I had to make up for lost time!
I know from years of languishing in bed that the there is NO TIME BUT NOW – If you have an inner dancer that is calling to be let out and if you have the ability to get yourself to a dance class then you should GO. Don’t worry about anything – not your age, ability, size, gender. None of that matters. A dancer is NOT someone with a perfect dancer’s body and perfect lines. A dancer is someone WHO MUST DANCE. I have seen dancer’s with ‘perfect’ bodies and ‘perfect’ lines and when they danced they looked dead. Because they didn’t have a dancer’s heart. If you have the heart for dancing then you should be dancing. Because nothing else will bring you the joy that comes from doing something you were meant to do.
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